…
did i forget
to listen to you,
and mould myself
from without
ominous winds,
they blow strong
and your stance,
it falters
i deviate
unknowingly
i lose you
i lose i
super fast forward
enter the dungeon with bricks in a rummaging cluster glaring but not caring
get swallowed into a tiny compartment of fidgety itches
pretend to live the choices of refined orange and apple juices
with fear spaced out of the walls that hold edges
stand inside the devilish doors that open and close and trap
and get dazed by the speed and the scene of colors
colors get back to you with spinal-hugs and thudding punches
and while your reality spreads away in slow motion
hold fast your precious bag of chinese take-out
breathe fire of humiliation while stares seep in
through the dusty feathery coat into the heart
bow to your life, bow to live your life,
bow to fetid hideous creatures with bulky paper asses
bow to your tolerance, bow to your shame-swallowing martyr
bow to your resident conman, for you are invisible now
and take a sigh, take a sigh, take a breath
and then feel your heart wobble out of place, in a slow boil
stuff your guts with flesh and face and trash and toads
burp out the same fetid breath and live the epiphany
alas! you’ve reared the same creature in you now
slaves of sanitizers and french vanilla scented coffees
weathered by the sun and the snow, and again
the sun and the snow, the sun and the snow,
sleeping through walks and doing untamed dances in your sleeps
drag your dirty clothes and twirl inside the washing machine compartment
and yes, your brains they ricochet off the tumbling cellar walls thus fabricated
get betrayed by your purity because “he ain’t alone!” hes never alone
swipe your metro cards and enter the turnstile and jump claw your seats
open your legs wide, rest your balls,
flash your crooked teeth and nicotine gum in pride
you’ve made it into the pattern
enjoy the hibernation ride.
